Monday, July 24, 2023
As soon as the nurse told me I wasn’t leaving until I was delivering my son, I texted my husband to tell him and he replied back if he could be with me as at this point, he was still in the waiting room. I then asked the nurse and she said they were going to be admitting me and he could meet us in the hallway.
I wanted so badly to let my parents know but they had just left for Mexico a few days before and I didn’t want to worry them so I decided to not say anything for now.
I then had to text my friend to let her know I wasn’t going to be there for my goddaughter’s baptism and explained why. She was the sweetest and understood and sent me pictures afterward.
We got situated in the hospital room and I remember feeling sad, confused, worried, anxious and upset.
- Sad – I felt sad that I wasn’t going to be there for my goddaughter’s baptism. I felt sad that I needed to cancel the maternity photo shoot that was scheduled to take place in less than two weeks. I was sad that I wouldn’t be home to decorate the nursery and go through all the baby clothes, toys, towels, etc.
- Confused – How was I going to stay in the hospital for 6.5 weeks? How/why did my water break? What does that mean for me? What does that mean for my son?
- Worried – I still had one week left of work and was scheduled to see patients the rest of the week and had unfinished notes. How was I going to finish my notes? What are my remaining patients going to be told? How am I going to know how to do labor as I never took any classes? How do I tell my parents?
- Anxious – How was I going to stay in the hospital for 6.5 weeks? How was labor going to go? I didn’t take any classes as they were scheduled in two weeks so how am I going to know what to do?
- Upset – I felt upset that I wasn’t going to be there for my goddaughter’s baptism. I felt upset that I needed to stay at the hospital. I was upset that I wasn’t prepared for this.
I decided to let my little sister know and I asked her what she thought about telling our parents about me being hospitalized and she suggested I say something as they would want to know. I knew she was right but needed confirmation it was the right thing to do.
I text my parents and of course my mom was worried. I told her I was okay, Xavier was okay and we were just waiting. I convinced my mom to not fly back and that I would keep her updated daily.
I convinced my husband to head home as he worked the night shift and we had two dogs at home that needed to be taken care of so he reluctantly went home.
The nurses were super nice, personable, informative and reassuring and that was extremely helpful.
I remember they were checking my blood sugars almost every hour until I told them I had a pump and my own CGM (Continuous Glucose Monitor) and that I can just tell them what my blood sugar was without them needing to poke me and they were very grateful about that as they also didn’t want to keep poking me once an hour! So that was cool!
It was my first time being admitted to the hospital and my first overnight stay in the hospital. Never thought this would have happened to me but I am grateful for the mindset I had all along:
Whatever happens, happens. I need to just go with the flow. A birth plan is just a plan. I need to hope for the best and try to prepare for the worst.